I don't know why .

I don't know how to describe my feeling or mood recently . Realize that the contents of my blog is keep on changing ? Sometime sad , sometime happy . I don't know why , this is what feeling that he gave me . Will not stay in the same mood for a long time . Today feel hurt , but maybe tomorrow turning sweet again .  

I can't blame on him for everytime that he make me feel hurt . Sometime he don't even know what I'm sad or angry for , I know it's because of he feel that what he didn't do anything wrong . So maybe is I too sensitive , like to think negative ways , but I not willing to tell him what I'm thinking .. Fake a smile and act strong is my habits when facing him . 


These few days sometime he will ignore me for awhile , but sometime he accompanied me , made me feel sweet , feel warm .  He asked me : Do you feel happy ? , I answered : Yes , got the feeling . why ? , He said : Nothing , I feel happy too .. Then he gave me a kissed ♥ . Really so happy and feel so sweet in the moment , but I worried that will disappointed once more , scared that someday he will start to treat me cool again .

But nevermind , at least you will not treat me cool for a long time :) ♥