I'm not a superwoman .. Do you understand ? ♥

You understand that , I'm not a superwoman?  

I'm not a suprwoman can bear however you treat me. When you didn't answer my call , or didn't reply my message , you know what am I thinking of ? I'm mad of worry of course , but the other reason that make I sad or mad is you don't even know or care my feeling when I'm waitting for you . The longest time that I waiting for you is for almost 5 hours . In the 5 hours , my phone never leave from my hand , because I scare , I scare I'll miss your call . You never knew it right ? Because I never told you  . Sorry that I used to nag you when you didn't find me . 

But did you feel that I'm starting to change ? Obviously . You will not saw that much missed call or message when you leave your phone , you will not heard that much complain when you didn't go tuition and let me alone , you will not feel that I'm always stick with you when with your friend ,  Know why ? Because you make me change , make me feel that its useless to care so much if you don't like . So , are you feeling much better now ?

You told me , you know that I'm getting envy of other couple's sweetness . And you said its not because of my FB status , is you really can see throught my eye when I'm looking at the couple . I didn't ask much when you told me . I'm thinking of , you said that you know , but why you don't even have a respond ?  I'd rather you don't even know anything if you choose to ignore . Yea , I admit that I'm realy envy , is super envy ! When looking they holding hand , talk with non stop , keep on smiling with each other , really sweet . I didn't felt it for a long time . Even that , I'll not hold your hand or do whatever automaticly , just feel if you want then you'll come and touch me by YOURSELF not me . This is why I less touch you when hanging out together .

I know myslef , I know I'll just say " Nothing , I'm okay " with a smile when you asking why I look like moody . You ever asked me in message , am I fake-ing a smile ? I feel like my tears gonna fall down when saw the message, But I'm still insisted on not telling you the truth and continue act normal . The changes of me , let you feel I'm less care-ing you ? I telling you now , I will never stop care-ing you , I will never let you gone from me ! Understand ?!  ♥