My thoughs .

My thoughs:

I don't know should I upload this or not ..

Because I scare some of you will thinking that I'm drama-ing ..

But now I feel I don't need to confused about that ,

because this is about "my words" ..

So, Although there's nobody know that I will not fake anything in this post ,

but I know it's worthy of my own ..

Erm ..

My life is full of confused , misunderstanding , and of course guilt and sad .

Friends ? Sisters ?

I don't even know how to facing those problem , maybe just let it to be is the best way ?

Confused again >.<

My most commemorate brothers ,

Hope both of you are fine ..

I know you can feel that I'm missing you now , right ?

I will remember both of you FOREVER my dearest friends

I miss the moment that we play pool , sing , joking , hi-tea .. and many .

Really miss it !

I know useless to say sorry ,

But I really hope to personally apologize to both of you ,

But Its don't have any chance =(

Last time I used cry to facing the facts ..

But now , I feel that is the worst way .. I know both of you never want to see us like that right ?

So I learn to put down ..

Put down feeling of rage ,

Put down feeling of regret .

I choose to use smile to began everything of my life ..

I know it's hard , but have to try ..

Because I never want both of you , my family , my dear , my siblings and my friends worry about me ..

I really don't even want that ..

Maybe these is the reason that now I seems like normal as this case haven't happened ?

But nobody understand that ..

I though all of you want I be strong , be happy ..

So I try my best to do that ..

But actually you all wanna see my "regret face" and "sad face" ..

But it's okay , I never blame on you all ..

Because I know the person that have to reflect is me ..

To You , My dearest sister .

I'm so happy to see you send massage to my Facebook , and said that you hope we can be friend back as last time .. In the moment that I feel down , I saw this massage .. and I cried , because of these few words really touch for me , ILY ! =')

To You , My dearest sibling.

You said that both of you didn't think to hate or mad at me , just don't know how to facing me in this moment .. everything happened was too sudden .. And you ask me don't worry , because I'm still your daughter .. I endured my tears , not to let it fall .. because you ask me to be strong ! =')