开始了

多希望时间可以倒流

回到2010年 ，回到十二月，

回到什么事都没发生的时候

不过也只是渴望，渴望不可能发生的事

现在的生活，我一点都不想要

很累，很幸苦

躲在房间听歌，翻看照片，回想以前

我想这应该变成我的习惯，或爱好了吧

我们之间的问题，开始了

开始误会，开始争吵，开始冷战，开始厌倦

你开始不理解我，我开始吃干醋

你开始觉得厌倦，我开始不想理

你开始忽冷忽热，我开始习惯了

即使这样，

那感情也不会变的，对吧？

我希望你对我还保留着那一份爱，

就算是不再那么浓厚

我们应该都变了很多吧？

不再每时每刻纠缠在一起，

不再时时刻刻都那么甜蜜，

你闷了，还是厌倦了？

我不知道，也不想知道

可能我想多了，也许你变了

现在只要还在一起，对我来说已经足够了

谁爱谁比较多，我不在乎，不计较

只要你对我还有那一份爱

 试着微笑:)

2 months Anniversary ♥

Last Last night (11 Feb 2011) is our 2 months anniversary ,

         And my new house was open house last night ..

He came to my house too ..

Feel happy to see his face ;)

 

Happy's time pass really fast , as wind ..

Anything will be blowed away in a little moment except of bad memories ..

Why ? I'm confused about this ..

How hopeful to delete those memories from my brain's memory card ,

but really childish to think that , because it's IMPOSSIBLE ! I knew ..

Anyway , I'm still have to continue for my life ..=')

My twins cousin ♥

 

Her name is Angelyn , 

And I call her Lingling .

My dearest cousin ..

We're same age , but she's bigger than me above 3 months ..

I love her damn much ! ♥

Does we look alike ? ;)

Many people said like that ,

Same high , same style , same taste .. =)

We can chit-chat above 8 hours ,

How crazy we are =D 

This time I meet her is on CNY at Ipoh ,

she's coming to Labuan for study after PMR ..

Because her dad is working at here as manager at my dad's restaurant —— Fisherman

I'm looking forward for the day coming XDD

Actually we could have been happy when chit-chatting ,

But when we talk about our thoughs ,

I tried to endured my tears , but however , she saw my moody face ..

Sorry Lingling , I'm not purposely to damage to the atmosphere =(

She know my everything those happen in this 2011 year ..

She comfort me , Talk a lot of things and try to make me put down everything those make me become like this.

She said :" 事情已经发生了，再多的愧疚和后悔都弥补不了。不如想开点，让自己好过点“

She's totally right , I hope I can do it although is without THEM  =)

This called true sister , by my side no matter what problem or trouble is around me ..
Although is just meet once for a year , but our relationship are still deep ,
We had stick together from small till we 6 years old ..
Because I move to this small island on that year .

I hope to meet her up as soon as possible , I love you Ling ! ♥

My thoughs .

My thoughs:

I don't know should I upload this or not ..

Because I scare some of you will thinking that I'm drama-ing ..

But now I feel I don't need to confused about that ,

because this is about "my words" ..

So, Although there's nobody know that I will not fake anything in this post ,

but I know it's worthy of my own ..

Erm ..

My life is full of confused , misunderstanding , and of course guilt and sad .

Friends ? Sisters ?

I don't even know how to facing those problem , maybe just let it to be is the best way ?

Confused again >.<

My most commemorate brothers ,

Hope both of you are fine ..

I know you can feel that I'm missing you now , right ?

I will remember both of you FOREVER my dearest friends

I miss the moment that we play pool , sing , joking , hi-tea .. and many .

Really miss it !

I know useless to say sorry ,

But I really hope to personally apologize to both of you ,

But Its don't have any chance =(

Last time I used cry to facing the facts ..

But now , I feel that is the worst way .. I know both of you never want to see us like that right ?

So I learn to put down ..

Put down feeling of rage ,

Put down feeling of regret .

I choose to use smile to began everything of my life ..

I know it's hard , but have to try ..

Because I never want both of you , my family , my dear , my siblings and my friends worry about me ..

I really don't even want that ..

Maybe these is the reason that now I seems like normal as this case haven't happened ?

But nobody understand that ..

I though all of you want I be strong , be happy ..

So I try my best to do that ..

But actually you all wanna see my "regret face" and "sad face" ..

But it's okay , I never blame on you all ..

Because I know the person that have to reflect is me ..

To You , My dearest sister .

I'm so happy to see you send massage to my Facebook , and said that you hope we can be friend back as last time .. In the moment that I feel down , I saw this massage .. and I cried , because of these few words really touch for me , ILY ! =')

To You , My dearest sibling.

You said that both of you didn't think to hate or mad at me , just don't know how to facing me in this moment .. everything happened was too sudden .. And you ask me don't worry , because I'm still your daughter .. I endured my tears , not to let it fall .. because you ask me to be strong ! =')