Sad .. =/

Smile ? A little fake ,

You all are so obviously , I know that post is about me . 

All of that is my fault , I know .. 

Maybe you all mad at me because I look like never regret what had I done ?

Because the smile on my face ? Because I just act normal after the case ?

I'm not going to investigate anything ..

I just wanna tell you guys ..

I smile because some of you all ever asked me don't think too much and be happy..

I look normal because I don't want anyone of you all worry about me ..

 But did you all know ? 

In the two weeks after the case happen ..

I nightmare everynight after that case..

I cried automaticly before I sleep or think about that ..

I just like live in a dark world  ..

Now started to be okay a bit already ..

But the other problem came out again ..

Haix  , I don't how many problem I gonna solve again ..

I'm not mad or angry .. Just SAD ..

2011 , the worst year =(

1st ,

I had done a big and serious mistake that made me feel so DAMN regret >.<

I think dnt need I say so clearly also you guys will understand what I talking about ..

So , Im not going to discuss about that anymore ='(

2nd ,

My school life ,,

I 1st time went to school at 2011 is Monday ( 17 Jan  )

But I early back home around 9.40 a.m that day , because my back was so pain >.<

Today ( 19 Jan ) is the 2nd times .

My dear went to school too ,

But I angry him at the time that i gonna walk out from school ..

His hand injured but he told me he wanna stay at school for the co-cum ? 

And I need to wait him til 5 p.m evening today !

I just fake a angry face and go out from the school , ALONE !

And I was take a looooooottttttttt of books from school today ..

Normaly's guy sure will accompany or help their girlfriend right ?

I though he'll accompany me or help me to hold those book , but he didn't !

What The F*** ????

Im not going to contact with him til he know what's his fault !

='(

3rd ,

He's starting to chat with GIRLS without telling me ..

Im waitting him to tell me but he didn't ,

Till the time that I ask just he admit >.<

And some girls "sweet" post he also reply ..

Hye ! Im not transparent okay !

Everytime also I need to tolerance and forgive you !

I had cried for you four - five times in a month and few weeks include today ..

What I gonna tell you right now is " Dear , I really tired of cried , cares , jealous , sad and disappoint at all , can you please try to understand me some more ? Love is have to accommodate by each other .. Its not called LOVE if just I accomodate you but you just continue do what you like "

Thats all ='( <3

My beloved dear ♥

DJ ♥